Thankful

Per usual, I’ve been remiss in updating my blog with the goings-on in my life. I will say that things have been exciting for sure. Since today is Thanksgiving, in addition to reviewing what I’ve been up to, I’d also … Continue reading

Time Flies and Love Grows

Tomorrow is the four year wedding anniversary for my husband and me.  These past four years have made us stronger and wiser. We’ve dealt with death, birth, parenthood, hospitalization, and many more challenges that might overwhelm the average couple of our generation.

I think from the beginning dear husband (DH) and I have always understood that you have to work hard at marriage. Even though movies and television try to make it seem like it should be easy, we both know from our parents experiences that marriage takes not only work and commitment, it takes determination. Maybe it’s generational, or maybe it is just that fantasy belief that love and marriage should be easy, but I feel that many don’t value or want the hard work. I welcome it. I married someone different from me so that we could have a balance. Because I appreciate his uniqueness and individuality. Don’t get me wrong, I’m awesome. But I don’t need to spend the rest of my life with the male version of myself. Opposites don’t have to attract but for us, it works.

It has never been more evident than it is now that we are parents. Gabriel gets the best of all worlds. Logical and emotions. A working parent and a stay-at-home parent. Carefree and structured. We are able to offer a holistic style of parenting that helps him flourish and leaves him nurtured.

DH is my compliment. He’s the silly to my serious. He’s patient when I’m impatient. And I’m calm when he’s frazzled.

With all that’s happened, four years seems like a flash in the pan. But I have so many wonderful memories to look back on and to be thankful for. We’ve had a lot of good luck along the way to go with our hard work. We deserve the happiness that we get and so much more.

Thank you for four wonderful years of marriage, DH. Let’s keep this party going! xoxo ❤

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October 17, 2010…our rainy day wedding. I guess it is good luck!

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Our little family just a year ago

Leaving on a Jet Plane

Tomorrow I fly off to North Carolina to celebrate/host the bridal shower and bachelorette part of one of my best girls, Miss Liz Louise. I cannot wait to party and celebrate with her.

I haven’t flown since my little was born and what’s more, I haven’t left him for more than two nights. That was a road trip up to the Nor Cal coast. This is flying to the other side of the country. I’m anxious but excited. I know that my husband is more than capable, but that doesn’t mean I don’t worry. What if he gets sick? What if he goes through a sleep regression or growth spurt? What if he forgets about me? I know the last one is completely irrational but, I’m a mom and a worrier: it’s a recipe for disaster.

I know that I am going to have fun and enjoy the break. I know I need the time off from work. I can feel the burn out coming. I could use the change of scenery and sometime to just be me; not an employee, a wife, or a mom. I will always be those things, but it will be nice to just be one of the girls for a few days, not just hours.

Wish me safe travels and maybe if you’re lucky, I’ll blog from the road!

 

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At my bachelorette, what seems like years ago (it was)…aren’t we cute?!

Here Comes 31!

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Does it count as a “no make up selfie” if that’s the norm for me??

 

If 30 doesn’t make you officially old, 31 has to, right?!

Another year in the books and I am pleased to say that 30 wasn’t that bad. Good job, got into grad school, and we didn’t move to a new place, so that’s a bonus. I’ve reconnected with old friends and made some new ones.

I look back on the things I’ve learned and how I’ve grown. Patience, understanding different viewpoints, maturity, power, and self-awareness. Things are areas that I have improved upon, and will continue to work on everyday.

I am lucky to have my husband with me through everything. He is strong, yet sensitive. Most importantly, he’s my partner. We really do complement each other well.

As with so much of the joy in my life these days, I owe so many smiles to my son. For a little over two years, he has really shown me what life is all about.  Growing a person, raising a person, being someone’s rock, their strength, their world…nothing else compares to that. As long as I get to keep doing this mommy thing, I know I’ll be alright with getting older.

Challenge Update, etc.

First let me apologize for my absence. With work overwhelming, the end of one terms of classes (straight As by the way), and the start of the other. Did I mention my husband is still in the hospital and I’m still flying solo doing the mommy thang? Yep, that’s been my 2013 so far.

As for my personal challenge to reduce my social media use…I have failed. Miserably. For the first few days I struggled. When I would open Facebook mindlessly, I would have to consciously remember to close it out. I think it did help, especially at work. But I also think I am the master at finding another distraction when another one is unavailable. Finally, I gave in. I don’t police myself anymore and I’m a little disappointed I gave up the challenge so easily. Maybe I needed to make my goal more manageable? IDK, seemed pretty straight-forward to me. Maybe I’m just weak. I think that is the more likely of the two. Such is life…

Two more days son turns one year old. This is a bitter sweet milestone for me. I can’t believe we have made it a year. It’s been magical and trying but I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I look back at some many things starting with my pregnancy to having him and it makes me well up. And then I think of all the wonderful things to come. That makes me smile. This year will be especially tough because my husband won’t even be able our son’s  first birthday party because he is still in the hospital. It can’t be avoided so we’ll just have to  to do FaceTime, take video, and lots of pictures. 

In the meantime, this mama is just trying to keep all the balls I am juggling in the air. Can’t let anything drop!

A Note to My Husband

I know that things seem impossible right now. It seems like it will be forever until we have our life back to the way it was. But I know that somehow, once this is all over, we will be rewarded for our strength and perseverance, not just with the bonds we form together, but with something amazing, befitting the end of our struggle. Of all three of us, you deserve it the most. 

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