I’m not an addict…

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Cheers!

To caffeine that is…well, maybe just a little…

When I was a teenager, I had a sweet job at that Department of Justice thanks to my father. While there, I took advantage of all the perks that go along with being an employee for the State of California. Their in-house coffee stand was the bomb. My addiction to their mochas quickly escalated to me drinking double and triple shots, two times per day. I was cracked out. Caffeine truly works for me. After a few months of getting headaches on the weekends from the withdrawal, I decided it was time to end the madness.  I stopped cold turkey and while for the better part of my 20s I did partake in caffeine I vowed to never be addicted again.

Then I became a parent…It is the only thing that makes sense to me how these sleep deprived parents can stay awake (and alive) for at least the first few years of their child’s life. Oh and then multiply that by how many ever children you end up having. So not long after Mr. Gabe was bornI rediscovered my old friend.

The best thing I can say about caffeine is that it truly does work for me. I notice a marked difference in my brain function, mood, job performance, just overall attitude about life after a single-shot mocha, or more often than not, a cup of black breakfast tea (Trader Joes Irish is the best). As I continue my parenting life, my career, and my education, I have found that caffeine is not a necessary evil but powerful ally. Why am I trying to fight it? Yes, it is a drug but so is all the other crap I take to keep myself alive. And if my addiction is garnering positive results, I would be crazy to deny myself.

So I say to you fellow parents, worker bees, students, and just sleepy people in general, embrace the caffeine! It might be just what you need to get your day started!

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Sleep is for the Weak

It has to be. You can’t commit your life to something as major as parenting and not be tough. The sleep deprivation is only a portion of the job. Not only do you have to be awake, you have to be alert and safe. There is a small, helpless person in your care. You can’t just blindly go through the motions.

I was never good at being sleep deprived but I am definitely finding out how tough I am, especially this week. So I sit here about to get ready for working, having been up since 4 a.m., not knowing when I’ll sleep again. But I also sit here holding a most precious gift 🙂

Things I Learned on Maternity Leave

~ I love the morning news. It makes me feel like an adult still connected to the world. The Today Show ftw!

~ I miss the show Scrubs. A lot.

~ It’s ok to spend all day in crappy clothes/pajamas. They will most likely be covered in drool, breast milk, formula, poop, and pee; some combination of some or all of the above.

~ Sleep is your most precious commodity, and you will barter with it like your like depends on it.

~ You need reminders for everything.

~ Sleep when your baby sleeps is a wonderful idea if you never want to get anything done. Sleep when your partner is watching your little one. It’s the most restful sleep you can get if you trust them 😉

~ Cherish every single second. Each day is the only time in their lives they will be that little 🙂

I love my son more than anything but SAH motherhood is not for me. These last few days I’ve started to go stir crazy. I need the routine of a job, combined with he unexpected occurrences of the workday. This transition will be tough, and I’ll miss my boys terribly, but I know that my husband will be a wonderful SAHD 🙂